It should have been great...

I was so close to love him... So close!

And now my heart is broken, beyond compair...

He's on a date! A DATE! It's so horrible...

They'll have a date, probably a dinner, and they'll have fun.
He'll be surely so handsome... He needs so little to be handsome;
She'll surely be pettite and slim, with lustfull curves, dressed fashionably to the occation.

He'll be so nice and polite, they'll be all smiles.
He'll touch her wit the very same hands that touched me. He'll kiss her with the very same lips that kissed mine...


Why is it that those i've ever wanted have rarely wanted me back?


There is so much i wanted to give him.


To have him would have been the ultimate sign of hope... But happiness have never been a friend of mine...