Maybe...

It's so unfair!

How is it possible that when i want to take off all the shyness, take all the ostracism away, i find someone who...I don't know...Is so old fashioned?

Maybe i should have said "No, wait..It's too soon", maybe i should have got a hold on the situation and selfishly used him up, 'cuz now it seems more than likely we'd never be in such a situation egain.

I know i can't push torwards it (world knows i'm the antitesis of sexy), and he doesn't seems to desire me anymore...

Maybe we should have sit on the bed and talked about it right there. I should have told him something like "I must tell you, i desire you, yet i have the impression that everything i do to you i'm doing it the wrong way. It makes me really nervous and i don't know how to go on...Would you help me out?"

Who knows? Maybe that would have avoided us a lot of misunderstandings and emotional bullshit.